It's 5 a.m and I'm still staring at my laptop empty screen
hoping to find some words to type down. Millions of thoughts are running
through my head but I can't put 'em into lines; it's like my brain is paralyzed
and I can't think normally anymore. It's so provocative to be unable to
express my feelings because simply I don't know what I really feel right now.
Maybe I should stop listening to my heart for sometimes because we always end
up together tearing into small broken pieces.
I don't know if I'm in or out of love, strong or broken, do I
know what I'm exactly doing or totally lost? I guess my heart would
never be able to answer, I no more believe in " follow your heart"
thing, it just doesn't work out for me. I just hope not to lose my
mind, I gotta give myself a break, stop judging myself and not trying to
be the perfect girl all the time; I'm a human being, I fall in love with the
wrong guys, I make mistakes, I lie to my parents, I get hurt, I am not the
perfect image that everybody sees.
It's 5:15 a.m and I'm still awake, I don't know if I'm having a
problem here or I'm just being a drama queen? all I do know now is I gotta get
some sleep and stop thinking about things I really don't have to think about.
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